So I am 6 months pregnant and have an extreme, debilitating needle phobia.. I have since I was a child when nurses held me down and fished in my arm for a vein. I have chronic pain and bone/nerve issues. My entire childhood drs told me I was a faker and was making excuses. So I have a great mistrust for drs and nurses. Up until now I avoided any procedure requiring needles. Obviously, I really can't do that now..I somehow forced myself to get my panel of blood tests done when I first became pregnant. Now everything is getting worse thinking about the glucose test and having to have an iv in the hospital. I'm having panic attacks daily and started seeing a psychologist....which honestly I probably should have done long before this. I'm trying to practice the exercises but I feel like it's not going to work. I watched my grandma give blood today and felt like my throat was closing.

Anyone have a similar experience? I feel awful that I can't get over the issue. I already feel like a horrible mother because my baby being the reason to go through with it all isn't enough to make me do any of it or feel better. My obgyn doesn't understand. He just keeps saying you have to get over. Super helpful. That's like telling a depressed person to stop being sad. Get over it. Idk...I understand have procedures with needles is a common things...and I completely recognize that it doesn't even hurt most of the time..but I still can't get over the fear and reactions my body goes through. I wish there was a fool proof and easy way to get over it all.