i’m sorry i’m a failure

i’m almost fourteen in act i’ll be fourteen in less than two weeks but i don’t really wanna live anymore. i just can’t do this anymore it hurts so bad you dont understand and i just can’t and won’t live this it doesn’t matter what you say it just keeps coming back no matter how happy i feel at one point this numbing sadness is always gonna be there and i just cant do this anymore i want it gone and the only way to do that is to just be gone. so i guess this is goodbye. update: i know that everyone says that it will get better and to not make decision in the moment and that i so t always feel this way but people have been telling me this for two years now... when the hell does it get better