So my SO was an athlete when we met. Very serious about basketball. They were a senior in high school still and lived at home. Their family was poor and didn't have a fridge so there was never food at home. Whatever food They did get was for their little brother and They went without food. They lost 20 pounds over the summer and got seriously underweight. Looking sickly skinny and causing my SO self esteem issues. Over the last year we have been trying to get their weight back up but haven't been able to get it back up to what it used to be. Lately it looks like they've been losing weight again. And the reason I am awful is because I am not attracted to them at this weight. They are two years younger than me so when ths underweight they look almost childlike and it makes me uncomfortable. We are married so I can't just break it off. It's making it hard for us to be close because I look at them and they look 5 years younger and it just gives me the heebie jeebies. I feel like an awful person for being so unnatracted to them. It's not the body so much as it is their baby face and how big their eyes look. I'm 23 and they now look 16. It makes me feel gross. And it makes me short with them bevause I don't like looking at them. God that sounds so fucked up. I do know what to do. I've mentioned how they look skinnier but it hurts their feelings and I don't want to do that. ugh. I'm awful. *****THEY CAN AFFORD TO EAT NOW. THAT WAS LAST YEAR. And I never said I lost interest. I love them very very much. Why else would it make me hate myself to feel this way ***