So I have been TTC for as long as my friend has, but I have pcos and diabetes so it's really hard for me to get pregnant. I have worked my ASS off trying to lose weight, get my sugar under control, and BD at the right times. She is perfectly healthy, has no clue what I'm going through, and now she's pregnant and her baby shower is October 7th. We were in each other's weddings last year and she was Really mean and rude to me the day before her wedding and it kind of broke our friendship. So I know I am being selfish, but it really hurts me thinking about her having a baby and me on CD 73, with AF nowhere in sight. Would you go to the baby shower? Or find a way out of it? Ideas for excuses or coping methods?

PS- she lives above me in my 3 apartment house.