Hoping to be pregnant


AF is due today, i am so so scared to test and be disappointed after losing my baby girl at 22 weeks in March. i had cramps and stabbing pains around implantation time, and have had cramps on and off since. Yesterday i really thought AF was coming as i had cramps on and off then late last night my stomach was so upset and i had diarrhea, AF hasnt showed yet. what do you all think? Each time i go to the bathroom im scared AF will have started when i really dont want it to