4wks 1day with rainbow baby... petrified!

So I lost my baby on 23rd June this year and am now expecting my rainbow baby and feel so blessed, but I just can't let myself enjoy it!

Every pain I fear is the start of another MC. We've booked in for an early scan (8wks 4days) hoping I'll feel a little better after seeing the heart beat (if it's there 🤞)

We told a few close friends and family last time, but I'm too scared to tell anyone at all this time!

I hope that once I get past 5 weeks and 3 days I'll feel a little better, as that's when MC'd last time.

So many people have said "at Least you lost it early" like it makes it ok, like my loss is less valid. It still breaks your heart.

Rant over, sorry! x