So stressed and upset

I really hate my body. Every month I get symptoms that make me think I am pregnant but then have a negative pregnancy test. well this month I didn't rush to jump to conclusions. I am 2 days late and again pregnancy like symptoms. I took a test just now and thought it looked positive. I am sure my mind is playing games and think I see two lines. won't show in picture for I tried send g it to my friend. I am going crazy and just want a baby already and am tired of being disappointed.