So in April I miscarried I wasn't far along, I was 9 weeks. I went to the ER cause I was not able to keep anything down and I was super dehydrated. I went they did a ultrasound and they couldn't find anything in the sack. When I told my boyfriend he was numb. He didn't say anything he was more worried about me. Ever since then he's held it in his emotions about everything. I don't push it cause if he wants to talk he will talk.

But lately I've just been feeling like an emotional mess. Like I've been seeing all of my friends who were due around the same time as me and I see their bellies growing and it's like I wish my baby was here. I wish that I could feel the little kicks, wonder if it was a boy or a girl. Like I wish I could experience those things. But I don't want to tell him anything sometimes cause I don't wanna burden him. I just idk I feel stuck and I need strength and faith that this will get better but I don't know if it will.

If you guys can keep me in your prayers that'd be greatly appreciated. I feel stuck. And I don't know what to do.