How to convince myself to stop wanting a baby?

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I had a perfect baby who died after 2 hours of having born due to a problem on his heart. I'm 43 years old but I can't convince myself to wanting a baby. This is beyond me. Eventhough my baby died in January for me it was like yesterday. I can't stop crying and suffering. I would like to find comfort and understand that another baby is not going to happen, but my heart and soul hurt.