my boyfriend and I want to start a family so bad. see when we first met years ago I found out I was pregnant but didn't know if it was his or my ex that I had left for him. we were new and just starting a beautiful relationship and I didn't want to put strain on it so I had an abortion which I regret. I am also a recovering drug addict which I know put even more damage on my body. But I have been clean for awhile now and have been focusing on starting a family with my man but we have now been trying a year and nothing has happened. I am too scared to go to the doctor and find out its me and I'm the problem from permanent damage I put on my body from an abortion or drugs or find out its him because he doesn't produce much cum as is and had a tare duct and also had a hernia in his groin. But all I know is we are deserving of this baby and are willing to do w.e we have to do to have it. We are currently in Bermuda he is doing cable work here making 75 an hour anywhere from 4 to 7 grand a week and is guaranteed another 5 months to a year of work. So once we go back to jersey we will have what we need to start a business or two and buy a house and have everything we need to be financially stable enough to support our child, and then some. I know we don't have the cleanest pasts but I know we could have the most beautiful future and all we want right now is a beautiful baby to start that future. I'm glad I downloaded this app to find out the best times to try and when I seem to be ovulating the most.. the one great thing about us is our sex life. we have never nor will I think ever lose our sex drive towards each other so those days it tells me I have a high chance of getting pregnant best believe we will be at it all day is every position that makes it easier for the swimmers to swim when produced and afterwards my legs will be up in the air. I know I have not done great things in my life but I was young when I was troubled but I am now 23 turning 24 in a few weeks and I have grown and matured and have a promising future ahead of me, my bad life is behind me and all I want is to keep starting over and be a wife and mother and be the things I never thought I would be at one point a long time ago. My bf saved my life when he met me by taking me away from the people and things that were destroying it. He saw hope in me when I didn't deserve the hope and he loved me when I felt worthless and didn't feel worthy of the love. He helped get me clean, stay clean, took me out of the state traveled with me and now took me out of the country to work day and night up to 98 hours a week just for us and our life together. So if I could give him this baby ill really feel like everything he did for me was so worth it. So wish me luck everyone and pray for me. We are going to try our hardest and ill keep you posted on what happens :)