Miscarriage:

You finally think this is going to work, our hopes and dreams have come true and we can finally relax.

But it's the multiple waves of sadness that come after that hurt the most.

The Reminder of your due date - that you have no baby to show for it.

Holidays- being reminded that you would have been picking out your babies first Halloween costume or Xmas present had they been here

Seeing other people pregnant, going for ultrasounds, having baby showers and thinking "I will never know what that's like".

Seeing your husband with kids and knowing you'll never know what he'll be like with yours

Questioning if this is even what you want, maybe this is the universe's way of saying this isn't for you, enjoy your freedom, sleep in, be selfish, travel. Then realizing this is what you want and going thru all the heartache again