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.... I just feel miserable. I can't even sleep at night anymore I am always tossing and turning. I am up every 2 hours or so. My stomach feel bloated. I feel fat. Exhausted. Even people at work asked I said no. Mom and grandma now asked if I am pregnant.Then when I go to the bathroom I wipe nothing then couple hours later I go again and wipe very little pink blood then wipe again then nothing. This afternoon I had like 4 pickles. My mom asked me if I was pregnant. I said no why. She said I never see you eat pickles.. the hell...I have an appt coming up on the 13th. I am scared to find out. If I'm pregnant I'm pregnant. I have always wanted to be. I wanna have my own baby..Just ugh. I am just 😰 😰 😰