losing my mind testing too early

I use 2 different apps & according to glow I'm 7 dpo my other app I'm like 10 dpo. I think the ovulation test I was using were expired or a bad batch bc I never had a surge.

I had 3 faint lines on the cheap first signal from Walmart, 3 different times and the 3rd was a bit darker. BUT I had someone tell me they put water on that brand of test & had a faint line. So I took a Frer & saw a barely there faint line.

At that point I knew I was testing early.

I knew not to torture myself.

But I honestly feel different. I have cramped lightly, spotted reddish brown almost orange watery blood the past 2 days. My boobs are sore but after having miscarriages I almost refuse to buy in to this or get excited bc I'm convinced its all in my head.

well today my wondfo lh strips & hcg strips came in the mail. So I took one of the hcg strips and a faint line in less than 5 minutes. so just make sure I dont just have line eyes I took an lh to see where the lines supposed to be & make sure I'm not insane (never used this brand before)

AND here is a pic of my tests.

the hcg line was faint as soon as my urine went across then at 5 mins the top half is darker than the bottom. INVALID??

Also my lh was almost positive at 3 mins and I should be about to start my period.

I'm going crazy.

I am scared to get excited after having miscarriages but when I miscarried my lines never got this dark.

I know I just need to wait and test again tomorrow but I want to know now, in fact I think I'm gonna take another one now bc I JUST DON'T KNOW!!