I'm 17 bf is 27 we met up today and it's the second time and I'm so confused he said he loved me and he's not gonna hurt me like the others but straight away he had sex with me and he tried to strangle me twice is that normal in sex he got angry at me for not swallowing I'm so confused and he sed I'm in control but then he wanted me to such and I couldn't breathe and kept trying to put my head back but he was forcing my head there and just ditched me wen I had no idea how to go home is this a relationship what is this ???