Everything is coming up so quickly.. I'm 22 years old and 26 weeks pregnant and I planned to have my baby shower October 14th and it just dawned on me how close that is and that I should have probably had invitations sent out like yesterday.. I don't really live anywhere, my mom kicked me out and I've been staying with my grandma but been at my baby daddy's for the last couple weeks.. we are "together" but not dating. I don't want to stay at my grandmas because it's so far out of the way (2 hours) and I'm due in the middle of winter and it will just be hard to travel back and forth for my baby to see his dad and vice versa. He hasn't offered for me to live with him, he already has a 3 year old and he lives in a tiny 2 bedroom house and has no hot water (his parents live up the road so he goes there when he needs a shower and his son needs a bath), there's just not enough room here to live even if he did offer. Plus my car is not baby safe or can really be driven in the winter. Sometimes it just randomly shuts off while I'm driving and the passenger door doesn't latch so it's rigged shut with a bungee cord. I just felt like I had so much more time to figure things out. I've been applying to so many jobs for months and never hear back from any. I'm at such a loss I'm so stressed out and overwhelmed and have no idea how I'm supposed to do this. I'm seriously just at the point where I feel like having this baby just isn't a good idea. I mentioned adoption to my baby's father so that he can grow up with the life he deserves and he was completely not on board with it.