If only I wasn't molested by a sick bastard who played husband to my mom and stepdad to me .I feel so disgusted with myself that I have to carry that burden on my mind for the rest of my life .It was all fun and games when my mother was around but as soon as she closed her eyes or left the house I was his sexual prey.the things that were done to me play over and over in my head ,from the way he touched me to the way he would cover my face with a pillow and record the things he did to me .every time I think about it I just want to end my life .I should've told someone .instead my mom had to find out in the worst way .she saw the videos of the things he did to me on his phone one night he was sleeping .it was a disgusting thing to know that the guy you married was not only having sex with you but having his way with your daughter while you were sleeping or working late hours .and to think the sick bastard had a daughter of his own and I hated her because she didn't have to experience what I did and she use to think he was such a good dad .I would notice how I would have my friends over and his pedophile mind would go crazy .if I ever see him again there will be blood on my hands.I dont like how some people say you have to forgive people who hurt you or they will take power over me .no one as sick as that deserve to be forgiven .they deserve to rot in hell and suffer .thanks to what happened to me I will never feel normal or comfortable with my body ever again