I regret circumcising my son...

Reposted since I apparently posted in the wrong room so hopefully I get it right this time 🙄...

This takes a lot for me to post but I have no where to turn to. Please no rude comments because I'm already feeling horrible.

So to start with everyone in my family IS circumcised. But I was on the fence about it. My husband was very adamant that we do it. I asked him to give me factual reasons and he pulled out the "health" reasons which I used to make myself feel better about the decision. My mother basically told me I HAD to get it done due to some uti problems in my family. I didn't buy that at all because she's a pathological liar. I kept telling my husband that I wasn't sure we should do it. And neither of us watched any videos on what really happens. So during the procedure they had me hold down my infants arms. But I almost threw up and had to leave. I wanted them to stop but the damage was done and we couldn't go back. I feel horrible. I cried for hours afterwards. And when they brought him back to me he was hysterical. And then fell asleep because he was in such shock. I feel like he's going to hate me when he's older. My husband says he doesn't hate his mom for getting his done. But I'm not sure my son will feel the same way. Especially since if I have another boy I am NOT doing that again. But my poor son. I feel like the WORST mother in the world for not listening to my instincts. Did anyone else go through this?