Postpartum depression

I think I have the baby blues but the only thing that makes me happy or distracts me is my baby. I'm sad all the time. I don't know why. I cry so fast, it's worst then when I was pregnant. Luckily I got my hair braided so I look put together every morning. But I don't even want to get dress and it's like all my jeans hurt my stomach because of my c section and I can't fit my maternity clothes 😢😢 I wanna have sex so bad but it's only been 3 weeks. It's just making me sad. My house is a mess I just cleaned and I cry every time somebody makes a mess. I wanna have a drink or smoke but I don't want to pump n dump because I'm making just enough milk only one of my boobs work. I'm just like ugh not to mention I have no friends or family within 100 miles of me.