I think my daughter broke my 😿😿

I am 5 months postpartum and I have just looked at my girly parts in the mirror yesterday....don't judge me! It just felt different down there so I was scared to look. I had my daughter in triage...no pain meds....not even an IV. My water broke and she was here. I did tear and actually felt the tear which was a horrific feeling but the nurses said I didn't need stitches. But seeing how my pussy looks I think I should have gotten stitches! 🙄 I think it's more cosmetic than a necessity but it's not the same. I want to have more kids but I'm scared now! 😳😳