He broke up with me.

We were together for 18 months..

Until 3 hours ago when he told me something wasn't right and that he wasn't happy.. he said he didn't know what it was.

I suggested maybe he's depressed, maybe he needs to make some real like friends..

But then I brought up me.

Then he said he feels like I've changed and he doesn't know if he can be happy in a relationship with me but he doesn't want to hurt me.

We both started bawling our eyes out crying and telling eachother we love eachother and that we want to make it work but then he did it.

He told me to get some sleep and he'll think about it in the morning.

To me that means he's definitely leaving me.

I'm only 16 and he's 18 but we were in a very serious relationship.

I'm still so shaken up about it all.. I keep crying and screaming into my bedsheets.

Ive clawed away at my arms and now it looks like I've self harmed after being clean for 2 years.

Does anyone know how I can calm myself down?

We still love eachother but he just wants to be happy and if he can't be happy with me then he has to leave me..

He told me I'm still his best friend and will be forever..

I can't think of him with another girl.. it makes me feel sick just thinking about it.

I know for a fact that I'm never going to get over him. That's not a sad teenager talking that just had her heart ripped to shreds.. I'm being serious. He's the reason I kept myself from ending my life over the past year and a half. 3 days before we started dating I was in hospital for attempted suicide by overdose.

He saved me.

And now he's leaving.. not to mention I'm starting college on monday, my dog has cancer and is slowly withering away, my parents have kicked me out, I have nothing to live for and all my suicidal thoughts are slowly but surely coming back and I can't handle it.

I need him 😭💔 I need him more than anything..

Someone please help but I'm in so much pain 💔💔💔