I think im depressed. I dont understand myself anymore. Please help

Update: so here's what happened. My boyfriend did something wrong to our squad. And our friends sued him. So as a girlfriend I stayed by his side to comfort him and to look after him since he was really sad. He didnt want that to happen. And thenit came to the point that we became isolated from our friends. Even me. They left us out and hated us even me. All i did was to support an help my boyfriend. And now they're hating me also. I thought they were my family. I always chose them over my real one. I thought they would understand me. But they didint. They would throw hurtful words at me. And one time my bf posted a pic of us and they would say that it's disgusting. It reaally hurts because i love our friends so much and they would do that to us. Plus my family isnt helping me at all. They would just add up to my problems. All i ever did was to give love. And this is how they would repay all the things i did to them.