I've been dating one man for almost two years. I was faithful throughout the whole relationship until now...things have been rocky the last year bc I got pregnant. He has a child and didn't want another. He told me I had to get an abortion. I said no and that he didn't need to be apart of my baby's life. He wasn't having it. During this time once I left his house he'd call his babymama to come pick him up and he'd go to fuck her. "It was morally correct" that he try to get his family back together while still being with me. He denied anything until I had proof in front of my face. The whole two years I've been paying his bills and taking care of his son and helping him achieve his dreams...it was a smack in the face...

I said that I was faithful until now. So we moved in together a couple months ago. I've never been with another man physically. But I have had another man in my thoughts. He's a man I've known for 13 years. We dated for 2 years longer distance. We called it off bc the distance was hard not bc we didn't love each other. A couple weeks ago, he reached out to me telling me he regrets letting me go. And how much he loves me and would love to be with me. Told me to take my time as long as needed but he wanted me to know. Since then I havnt been able to shake him off my mind. Yesterday he called me again and told me he's saving up to move out here just to be with me. I've never known anyone willing to move to another state just for me.

Who would you choose to be with? Am I fucked up for wanting the second one?