I am 3 weeks postpartum and almost sure I suffer from postpartum depression. What do you ladies think? My baby is doing well but I am constantly worried about him. If he's crying why is he crying, if he's sleeping too long I want him to wake up already and start crying so I know everything is fine with him. I don't want to leave his room EVER, and closing door behind me and leaving him in is super hard...I hear him cry even when he's not crying (they say this is normal but it's driving me crazy). I feel so sad most of the time, so much pressure is built up on my chest trying to hide it, I feel like suffocating. Tears sometimes just come on their own though. I sometimes have happy moments too so I don't know how am I doing, is this really postpartum depression? My husband is trying to be supportive but I feel like he doesn't understand....he idealized me as being super strong and I feel like he doesn't believe I can feel as bad as I do....I also feel like I'm letting him down feeling like this.. so I rise my head up, take a deep breath and keep strong while I am falling apart inside....anxiety is so strong that my body shivers when I lay down to sleep...everyone says this is normal but how long is it supposed to last can anyone give me timeframe? I am having super hard time holding it together I am also scared to go see a professional..what if they prescribe me meds? I am breastfeeding and was even avoiding to take pain meds for my stitches, I don't want to take chance and take something that could possibly alter my perfect baby....but if the doctor sees the need for it I can always refuse but then I am worried it will make me feel worse with my anxiety. Ahh I feel so cornered and as you can see by now have so many fears of fuckin everything. I am so not happy, there is barely few moments when I am able to actually enjoy my baby....