TTC Rainbow baby

On July 3 I was told I was having a miscarriage. Meanwhile, I had no spotting or bleeding or cramps. This was considered a blighted ovum. It was about 8 weeks 5 days when I saw the doctor for my first u/s. I carried another two weeks before I had a MVA. It never stopped growing. I had my first period cam back around Sept 15. I was hoping I would become pregnant but I didn't. Then this time around I tracked my ovulation and BD and nothing. I've had cramps all day front and back. And I started bleeding lightly. I guess I kind of got my hopes up. I'm trying to be okay with just letting it happen on its own but it's hard. Just feeling a little down. Knowing everyone around me is pregnant and when I was pregnant something happened.