worst period experiences? Here's my current situation 😭

I've never had an easy period and I doubt I ever will. I've had many normal ones and many bad ones but out of all the bad ones I think this is the worst one yet. My last one was very painful I had so many cramps that I just stayed in bed and slept all day but this time is so much worse. This time I don't have as many cramps but I am emotionally overwhelmed. And this is my heaviest flow yet. I flat out feel depressed asf. I'm so tired I just wanna sleep yet I have so much to get done it's stressing me out and I don't have the energy for it. Today I got home from my college class and went straight to my bed and fell asleep I woke up 4 hours later drenched in my period blood and my reaction was to sit there staring at it at cry until I finally got up and removed my bed sheets to take them to the washer and as I did I just had to bump into my dad and I was so embarrassed trying to cover up the blood. I'm glad he didn't say anything cause I felt so much shame already. As soon as I got in the shower I saw my blood and I started to throw up and continue to cry ( at this point idek why I'm crying I just feel overwhelmed) I've never thrown up to the sight of my period blood but it was so much of it and I was disgusted by myself. Sorry for the long as paragraph I just need to vent and sadly I don't really have any girl friends I can talk to and being the only girl on the house I don't have anyone at home to talk to either.