I have always been that person who wanted to help people, but about 3 years ago I started realizing that I was confusing helping others with being too nice. My depression and anxiety would have me bend over backwards to please people just in the hopes they would do the same for me without me asking. I was able to stop and start focusing more on me and my help, but things are quickly getting bad again. I'm stressing myself out, losing sleep, binge eating/drinking, and having random panic attacks because I'm trying to take care of everyone else but myself. Then my mind plays tricks on me. It makes me believe that I'm not meant to be happy and I'm only meant to serve others. This happens every time I get even a small moment of happiness. Does anyone know something that can help me with this? I feel like I'm slowly killing myself because of my kind heart.