Help/advice

I am still pregnant but think the women in this group will be able to give me better advice. 25 weeks and I just want this baby out of me.. I still have not felt bonded at all to him. I don't care what happens to him, I just want him out so I can drink or take medication to help me and slow my thoughts down. I don't want to hurt him or wish anything bad on him, I just want him out. I am extremely anxious and nothing is helping. I am in the process of switching therapists so please don't tell me to seek help as I have plans to. What did you do when you felt overwhelmed like this ?