I'm a shitty mom

I've wanted only boys since I was little. When I found out I was pregnant, I picked out a perfect boy name and theme. Today I found out I was having a girl. I love her just as much as I would have loved a boy but I'm just so bummed. Like all my plans are down the drain and I'm just stressing over how dramatic and rude girls are.

I used to babysit a little girl and it made me so scared to have one of my own. I can't stop crying when I think about the fact I'm not going to get my little boy...

Am I a shitty mom?