I'm not even sure...

Alright so on Tuesday, I was dumped by my boyfriend, Ryan, (our homecoming picture last year) of a year and a half😭 he was telling me that I deserved better than him and that there's someone else and that's one of the reasons we're splitting. He keeps telling me he wants to meet other people, even though he told me he had already met someone at the start of the summer(her pictured below). He also keeps telling me that he just wants to find himself throughout this time we're apart and that he wants to take a break from dating. He got held back a year and has to finish up his senior year of high school still while I'm moved off and into my third week of college. I had been constantly bullied because I was dating him and it had hurt our relationship a lot. We ended up fighting about it a lot because I'm scared to stand up for myself because I had a rocky past. (Flashback to 3 years ago) The girl he likes now, was once my best friend and helped me through a ton when I was with my ex. Both her and my ex had betrayed me and got together behind my back while I was 6-7 weeks pregnant with my exes child. She was going to be his or hers godmother until that happened. I (sadly) lost the child a week later. (Fast forward to now) I had been there when she met Ryan. He had the same look in his eye that he had when he met me. It's that special look you get when you get love at first site. He has apparently been dwelling on her since the start of summer and I had my suspicions but I never asked and he never said a word. He started looking at me different from that point on....

I guess what I'm wanting here is advice and support throughout this.

*********UPDATE***********

It’s been a while and things were going good for me. I met a great guy and we hit off pretty nicely. But a few days ago, some things took a turn for the worse and people started feeding both my ex and this new guy lies. Supposedly I’m a “prick” and that I “do nothing but lie to people”. I have an amazing job with some equally amazing people and I’m starting to realize that the guys I’ve been into are just dicks and I need to find better people. I’m starting to find my way a little more and I appreciate all the encouragement from everyone💜