so fed up...

I can't post anywhere else really or vent my boyfriends brother is getting married and his fiancee invited me to her bridal shower and bacholorette party..well my boyfriend is in school and works full time while I'm home with our two kids I quit my job a year ago and ever since I've stayed home I go to the store and doctor appointments that's it I don't go anywhere else my boyfriend is literally so pissed at me for wanting to go because he doesn't want to watch the kids or for me to see a stripper or drink..all the ladies on his side of the family are trying to grt me to come because I never get a break (and though it's true it doesn't bother me i love being with my kids but it would be nice to grt a couple of hours especially with the fact I deal with a toddler and a newborn all the time lol) I'm 22 and feel like I'm being held prisoner by him he hasn't been like this in so long but I figured it's cause I wasn't asking to go anywhere..I'm at a loss of what to do I love him Idk what it is about him but it's something..I just need to know what to do or how to handle all of this everyone in his family sees hiw he is with me his own mother has told me multiple times I should have left but I don't want to leave especially now with having two young kids with him I just want a happy life where I can go out for a couple of hours *and before anyone says well maybe he needs a break he goes to work comes home does his school for about an hour then he goes and gets on his playstation for hours on end when he is home he is never out of the room and does nothing to help with either one of our girls and I don't say a thing about it I let him do whatever he wants on a daily basis*