Heartbroken without my baby 💔

Sorry for the rant here ladies but need to get this off my chest...

How is it fair that all of us are in this group and couldn't keep our babies?

I tried for nearly two years to become pregnant with my son, I took all the vitamins I needed before we got pregnant, ate healthy and exercised frequently, took things easy, I don't smoke or drink, brought everything he would need and was so so excited about having my own child to spoil yet my beautiful little boy wasn't able to stay 😢 (I had pprom from 16 weeks) this really isn't fair to have to live this pain every single day without my child here. I wanted him more than anything. Do I not deserve to be a mum? 😭

I wish i could swap places with my little boy. So scared I'll never be happy again 💔