I feel uncomfortable

So I talked to this boy before and he was 3 years older than me, before that I was very freaky and I felt the urge to be with someone and just let loose, but once he broke up with his gf (not for me) we started talking. On thing led to the next and he started to walk really close to my house by a community park. I told him if he walked long enough he would reach my house, I didn't give him directions but I told him he was close. After a few minutes went by I saw him walking towards my house, and I quickly called my friend over Bc I never met him in real life. I heard he was bad and I'm attracted to those kinds of boys... okay well once my friend showed up we left and went to go meet him by my house. IT WAS SO FUCKING AWKWARD and a turn off bc I didn't think he was so quiet and he made me feel weird Bc he was so different. Then we rode around on a Golfcart and then my friend started driving and he fell off, it was very awkward Bc he just laid there and got up and said let's go, no emotion at all like ew wtf, then my friend had to go home and I was alone with him, he met my parents and we went into my woods right next to my house, nothing happened but I fell and he stood there and after I started to struggle he helped me and I smacked him in the head, again no emotions and I felt like throwing up. After awhile he walked home and I just felt so disgusted Bc of how different he was ( we hugged 3 times and he felt like a toothpick). My parents didn't know what to do but they weren't mad and I tried to kill myself because I hated regret, either way he was a fuckboy Bc he went after my friend but I felt so weird and I need help forgetting about it and I need to know if anyone else felt like this before Bc now I feel like I don't want to date anyone anymore Bc I feel like it will happen again and I feel ashamed around my family, any advice