The soul crushing feeling when you get a bfn and can't stop beating yourself up for it not working out this month. However, the stress level is finally off your shoulders with the constant worrying, pressure and over analyzing every single jolt or twinge going on in your body or in my case in my mind, believing it could possibly be a sign of life.

Although I am disappointed, and shed a lot of tears, I'm very relieved this-what felt looooooong ass cycle had ended finally and the level of anxiety that always takes place is over.

Now comes a brand new month and I'm not even done trying. 💪

My time will come and I'm embracing this journey where ever it takes me.

We will have our rainbow baby. 🤗