heart broken :/

Rach • Mommy to a 7yo 👧🏼 and new born 👶🏼 boy

I feel it coming. the pre-spotting cramping that I get in my legs, back and stomach. this happens every month, don't know why I'm so surprised. I just felt like I had it this month. used pre-seed, been taking my new prenatal for 5 months now, taking my new dha/omega oil pills for the same amount of time, I drank pom wonderful CD 1-8 and then 2dpo until well today 10dpo, I used OPK clear blue, gave myself a bladder infection from not peeing right after sex hoping it would help me conceive and nothing but my "going to start spotting soon" bs!!! I'm 22 years old, I have a 3 year old and hub is 30. wtf! I'm doing everything right, everything by the book and yet month after month I'm here depressed as shit because there is still no baby in my belly.