Feel like I just want to walk out the door and not come back.

I've got 2 boys, 2 year old and 8 month old. I'm 23. Been with my partner for 4 years. I should be so happy, we have the perfect family the perfect house the perfect life. But, I've been feeling like I just don't want this anymore. I can't cope!

I got a job a few months ago thinking it would help but it hasn't. I only do one shift a week, I mean, the money helps but it's not helped me.

I don't want to talk to the doctor, I don't want to be judged. Everyone says I'm such a great mum. I do anything and everything for my boys. When I have visitors I put a persona on, like the biggest smile etc. Soon as they leave I just want to burst into tears. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I've not told anyone because I know they will judge me as a mother. They will treat me differently and act as though I'm not capable of looking after my boys.

I don't know what to do, I've no one to turn to :(