Healing from heartache

Every time, when it got to the point to take off my ring, I looked deep into the eyes of my soul mate. The very one who had caused me enough heartache to last a life time. Enough pain, suffering and betrayal to push someone beyond limits. I had rock bottom self esteem, perpetual sadness and a pain in my heart that was so deep, it took my breath away. I just knew, that I couldn't give up on him. Because when you're in a situation so deep, and you can't escape, the last thing you need, is the only person who believed in you, giving up

After a while, the thoughts slowly get pushed to the back of your mind. Maybe it's because I'm distracted, or maybe it's on purpose. The pain is deeper now. It's cold and wet and sick. Like an old wound deep down, that won't heal. I can't think about what happened. It makes me physically ill. To think that you would've given someone the world, but they wouldn't do the same for you.