I just want to explode

If I don't get this off my chest I am going to explode......

Me and my husband have been trying to conceive for two years. I was tested found out I was not ovulating. They out me on Clomid but cause me to have serval ovarian cyst. I also have a history of ovarian cyst.

The baby fever has got worse her lately. To the point of being so bad I cry over every pregnancy announcement I see on Facebook. It's bad enough there a girl at my job that waddles back and forth in front of my desk and everybody runs her tummy and talks about how cute she is. 🙄

My coworker states she has went there fertility problems. But she is never helpful. "If you can't take the pain of try to conceive then it's not for you." Who says that to a fellow woman going down the road she has been on. She has even made it a joke around another coworker. They asked was I glowing? She said "are you pregnant?" I said "No". " Oh it must be the lights."😡

And I found out last night of all people in this world to get pregnant. My husbands cousin. She hates kids, does drugs, and is lazy. But she just popped out a baby girl the night before.

Just why can I not see a positive pregnancy test? Why can I not be the one everybody is rubbing her tummy saying how cute she is. I want to go and hear that heart beat on the monitor. See my husbands face when I tell him I am pregnant. Hold something me and my husband beautifully made in love. Count the ten finger and toes. Smell that wonderful addicting baby scent.