Hot Mess Express - 5 Weeks, 1 Day

This is a venting post!

I work at a hospital as a Certified Nursing Assistant on a Trauma PCU. We are constantly understaffed, and I often have 12 patients to care for with limited assistance from my nurses because they're busy dealing with 5-6 patients at a time. Yesterday, I spent 3 hours walking around at an amusement park with family because they were visiting from out of town and it. Wiped. Me. Out. I probably should have gone to bed earlier than my usual 9:30, but I didn't, and then woke up at 6:05 to work today. I am exhausted. I am hormonal. And I do not want to be at work. I've cried probably 5 times since I got here today and I'm pissed off at everyone. They say you're most emotional during your first trimester but I don't know how to cope with all the stress of my job (physically, mentally, and emotionally) and take care of myself and or baby. I do not like to shirk my responsibilities and I knew that if I called off work today my team would be even shorter than we already are. I feel like a crazy person 😭

Is anyone else dealing with this kind of stuff? I feel like a total mess.

(Please forgive any and all typos, I just don't care enough to edit this post right now)