I don't know what to do anymore

Kate • 🎀 baby girl born December 22nd🎀

Let me start this off with as short of a backstory as possible. Im 16, i've been with my mom since May but other than that, she was never involved in my life. My dad has been trying to finish up our house and it was supposed to be done in July.

So it's horrible at my moms. She and her boyfriend scream at and hit each other all the time. The house is always dirty, nobody cleans except me, and nobody takes the dog out. My mom is the biggest bitch I've ever met in my life. We can't have a conversation without her getting disrespectful to me. Since I've been here, my depression (which WAS very manageable before i came here) is 50x worse. Thoughts of suicide and self-harm seem to be all I think about anymore.

My dad knows how much I hate it here. He knows i'm supposed to work overtime, keep up with schoolwork, pay for my own stuff, pay for necessities my mom should've bought but instead blew her money, and i'm supposed to buy stuff my 18 year old sister bought. But he's still been taking his time on our house.

My dad owns 12 acres of land and i've been looking into getting one of those pre-built mini cabins to move into on his land. My boyfriend (18) wants to live in it with me and has offered to split bills. I don't feel comfortable living in one without him (PTSD from sexual abuse in my past relationship) and I'm trying to find a way to talk to my dad about this.

My boyfriend makes GREAT (for a high schooler, anyway) money because of a welding co-op program he's in and i have about $900 saved up from the time i've been at my moms. We can afford it because the "rent" is only $137 a month and we'd have to pay my dad for the bills we use.

I get that i'm only 16, and i see why he'd want to say no, but he's told me before that he'd be fine with me moving out and getting a place with my boyfriend when i'm 17. i'm 6 months away from being 17, plus i'd be on his property to keep an eye on us.

I guess i just wanted to rant and see if this was a good idea? I don't know. i just don't want to be at my moms anymore.