Resentment

Just wanted to put it out there.

Has anyone ever been so obsessed with wanting a baby it makes you so mentally crazy? I am so depressed and up and down with my emotions. I crave having a baby. I feel so horrible because I resent my husband for not having one with me yet. We are waiting for our home to be built and are living with his parents in our own separate house on their property. Trying for one while living with them wouldn't be the end of the world. It's not like they will hear it cry or have to worry about it. Our house should be built by July next year. We are both very blessed and have very good paying jobs so money isn't really an issue. My husband says his ready by to me being ready would be trying. I have pcos and am so fearful that it will take us a long time to fall. My doctor even said what's the harm in trying. He said he and his wife struggled for a very long time so it's better to start early. My husband on the other hand is saying it will prob happen first go. I just feel so deeply about having a baby to the point where it hurts my heart and soul not being pregnant. I've always wanted to be a mum. I feel like I was out on earth and that was my main reason. I work with young people whom I adore so I am around kids. I feel so bad for taking my frustration out on my husband.

Anyone feel the same or have any pointers for me and or him.

Thanks guys