where should I begin. I love you so much. I thought you and I can be forever long. 6 long years of I love yous, I want yous, how we cuddle up the whole night falling asleep in each others arms, waking up to stinky breathe but yet we still kiss eachother passionately, falling asleep on the phone together when we are apart. What happened to all that?. all we do is fight, argue, yell, with a crappy half ass apology at the end, hanging up sleeping alone through out the night. That became normal..too you.. I cried all the time when we got to that point. But now I don't anymore.. Instead I block you out my mind and let u talk your brains out. Which madly breaks my heart. But you always say it's because of me why we got to that point. why we got that far. Never you because your a perfect angel and I'm just a devil ruining your life right?. I can't talk to u anymore without u getting pissed. I can't be myself because I have to be this other damn creature to just satisfy you, pleasing u. you tell the world I'm your wife but talk to me like some homeboy in the streets. Once I tell u how I feel, it's my fault why I feel that way, never you. But when u feel some way its my fault why u feel that way. you just texted me saying you never felt so distant from me. honestly, it feels good to be this distant from u. after the way you've been talking to me lately, pointing fingers at ME FOR EVERYTHING, IT FELT GOOD TO barely talk to u today. It felt good to not call, text, or see u today. And now ur starring at ur phone wondering why haven't I text u? why haven't I call u? and when we were on the phone I bet u sat there puzzled like why aren't I speaking too u. I'm getting tired of u and your ways towards me. your not some king so don't expect me to treat u like one. the way u treat me is just tiring, disgusting, never think for one second the problem can be u. But the problem is always me. I'm staring to get the feeling that it's okay too be alone. it's okay to be single. And the way u have been treating me lately. I'm starting to accept those feelings of me just being alone, without u. And I think ur catching on too. u miss me now? now u want to send me broken hearts? now u want to say 'i never felt so distant from u'. where were u when I said that and felt that??!. nowhere. u told me to shut up or ignored me. people might see u as this loving perfect angel. I see u though. And you're not. towards me your not. I'm pretty as fuck, sweet, loving, anyone would want to be with me. And this is how u treat and act towards me. boy, I just can't anymore. ur getting closer too losing me. open ur eyes before I am gone. because I just can't do this any longer..u know all this too. I told u all this last night. did u listen? I don't fucken know. Just know ur time is almost up. which u know.