Dear body...

DEAR BODY,

Hi, you know I'm 5 days late... took a hpt 3days ago it was negative.. today I received horrible breast pain and vagina pain.... but no period. Yep, YOU my friend needs to stop playing the pregnancy game with me and give me my period or give me my baby! STOP PLAYING GAMES!! Ugh! I just want to rip your ignorant ass vagina out of you and get better working ones! All I just want is my little precious baby in my arms!! Is that too much to ask?!? You have never gotten pregnant ONCE out of the 3 years of trying. Before the trying you was regular now that I'm TTC you want to get irregular on me.. like what is your deal? Do you not want me to be happy? Or are you being selfish? What is it? I wish you can tell me what's going on so I don't have to go to doctors who tells me the same thing "oh you and your partner is fine" when clearly it's not..I know you see your friends and family having their precious moments and you ALSO know that I want to experience those precious moments also but you're not cooperating... why are you being so stubborn? Why? Every piece of the little hope I have dies inside every time I see a negative. So my plead to you is that I ask for a chance...the chance of being a mom...... 😞

Sincerely,

Me