I don’t think I can ever date again

It feels stupid to say this and to put myself down like this...but I don’t think I’ll ever be in a relationship again. I haven’t dated in 4 years...I’ve closed myself off completely.

I always believed that I wasn’t pretty enough. That because I don’t have a big butt or an hour glass figure no man will ever love me... That if I ever do get into a relationship he will leave me because I’m not like that.

I don’t believe in love anymore like I used to

:( often I think men are only after looks and it doesn’t matter beyond that.

It hurts to think like this...