TTC Blues

My husband and I have been trying for over 2 years with no success. Every month I anxiously wait to see if AF debuts and she’s on time, every time. Lately AF has been off 2-3 days which makes it worse. My cycles have always been consistent so when it’s late, I get super excited thinking this month is the month but no. It’s now starting to get depressing. Then I’m told how everyone else around me is pregnant. I’m asked all the time when am I going to have a baby. My husband always says, “I already have a daughter.” I automatically blow up on him. Insensitive. Why say some shit like that to your wife? Mind you I take care of his daughter like she’s mine. She lives with us. Her mother, smh. Now her mom going round telling people we got divorced, bitter bitch. When I see her ass, I’m whipping her ass on site. Y’all I have so much built up anger and sadness inside me. I’m ready for better days.