There a just no hope...

Ma

So been ttc #2 for 1 year and now 4 months.

This past cycle I Had no urge to test, no urge to look for signs, no nothing.

So naturally I started getting bloating all the signs of AF and I didn't even get upset when she showed up this morning.

Is something wrong with me or am I just numb to the process because of all the let down? Is this normal?