Tired of this BULLS****

So i have been ttc for about 10 months now. I have a 7 yr old daughter with someone else.

I had her when i was 18 yrs. but now i’ve been trying to have a baby with my fiancé

It has been the most stressful, depressing, hardest, craziest 10 months of my life. Between the trying, and experimenting with different products to make it happen is driving me insane. I think i have tried everything on the market, but thats not the point of this post. Is the stupid two week wait, on those two weeks im miserable, my anxiety kicks-in, and i test early resulting in BFN.... and then boom 💥 AF shows up

Like, can i pleaseeeeee get my wish, as simple and quick as it happened when i was 18 yrs old!!!!!

This is me literary waiting for Oct 22 to confirm AT is showing up, again, unwanted and uninvited.

Anyways, im just EXHAUSTED of all these TTC. I just needed to vent!