I think I've been genuinely excited about this pregnancy a hand full of times in the past 8 months. It feels horrible to say that but its true. I found out I was pregnant in October at the time I was working in new york city and had an apartment in Jersey where I commuted everyday. My SO was living out on Long Island and we saw each other on weekends. Once I got pregnant it was really hard being away from.him so much and needing that emotional support. I cried so much. He tried hard to find a job in the city or Jersey as he was only working part time on LI and not making much money. After several months it still didn't look good. So o started looking for jobs on LI and I got one. Now I am in this new job and regretting my decision everyday because I gave up my FMLA rights from the other job and will need to take unpaid disability leave on top of the fact that I lose insurance coverage from my current job because I can't cover the 1400 a month premium. I'm lost, confused, and angry. Also my baby shower is this weekend and I have to pretend to be happy.