TTC messes with my head! 😂

Okay. This is all an exaggeration of course (maybe) but I just got yet ANOTHER BFN... and still can’t convince myself that I’m NOT pregnant. 🙃🙃🙃🙃

Here’s how it goes down just about every month.......

I will think I’m pregnant. Get ‘symptoms’ left and right, like “I had heartburn for 10 seconds last week, my period is 3 hours late, I think I’m bloated even tho I just ate a whole pizza” and my brain is like YES MAMA YESSSSS THERES A BABY IN THERE!!!!

So I’m like ok ok ok well lemme go take a test even tho it’s midday and I’ve had 18 bottles of water.

NEGATIVE.

STARK WHITE.

NOT EVEN THE FAINTEST OF LINES.

And so I think, well maybe my urine is just too dilute ... I’ll take one tomorrow morning, I definitely HAVE to be pregnant. No other explanation. I don’t even wanna hear it.

Morning comes around, take a test. What do I see? A BLANK ASS CANVAS where that test line is supposed to be. WHAT ??? Again?????

Got me thinking that I’ll be one of those women who just gets their BFP late.

DAYS CAN GO BY, MY SYMPTOMS CAN DISAPPEAR, but one night I go out with my friends and NO I CANT DRINK!!! WHAT ABOUT THE BABY?!

There ain’t no goddamn baby. Again... another month without a BFP.

So then I see pinkish when I wipe... omg. IB!!!!!! I just ovulated late and implanted late!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe now I’m pregnant!!!

It’s my damn period. AF can come and bring UF, CF, and great AF with her, I can bleed heavy for 6 days and STILL.....

SOMEHOW....

convince myself I’m pregnant. “I’m just gonna bleed for the first month of my pregnancy. NBD.”

Is it just me?? Or can trying for a baby really just mess you up mentally?! 😂😂