Totally confused tmi

Ok, my mind is totally bent right now.

Last month we miscarried at 5.6 weeks. I fell pregnant again this month (it took us a year to get pregnant last month). Positive tests albeit faint and then started bleeding just blood bright red not particularly heavy and not a period. I passed one clot and then the bleeding stopped. Naturally I thought I’d miscarried again, however the pregnancy symptoms are getting stronger, last month they disappeared quite quickly. So off to docs yesterday for a blood test, which depending on levels they may repeat to see if it’s gone up. Doc suggested it’s possible it was twins with different conception dates and I’ve lost one of them.

I think I am pregnant I feel pregnant (and like I’m going mad). We did a clear blue digital this morning which was negative and then the dye one which has a faint line but it appeared straight away. Because I’m clearly out to punish myself I have also been using opks (I understand the limitations and the risks!!) which are getting darker.

So my brain is absolutely blown right now. As I type this my boobs are feeling really tender and I’ve been feeling sick and really tired. Getting a bunged up nose, constipated (sorry!!) and had insomnia the last two nights. Just do not know what to think, I’m expecting the blood test to be too low for them to want to repeat it, maybe I’ve got the dates wrong?

Anyone had anything similar?

Huge baby dust to all of you and hugs to anyone suffering! X