Trying to find an abortion clinic (need to vent)

Ive been trying to find an abortion clinic and i finally found one. I tried calling and setting uo the appointment, but the lady waa so rude and tried to make me feel so stupid i ended uo hanging up and crying on my way home. Its my first pregnancy and i am scared. I have no idea what im doing, and im trying my best to figure it out on my own. My fiance is trying to be there for me but this is all very difficult for me... I feel like my life is falling apart and ive been so down... Im just so lost and hurt and i feel alone...